'Round and 'round it goes...

I'm at work, and using the computer. It's a pretty big deal. It almost makes me as happy as when I got my ID card and didn't have to be escorted through the building everyday. Finally I have internet access again! A million possibilities have opened up! And of course I only go to the same old websites I always have. Siigh. I really should discover some new ones. But I have all the time in the world now, because it's pretty slow around here. I don't mind it though, it's exactly the kind of easy, but still carrying some responsibility, job I was looking for, that would allow me time to do my own thing when I wanted. I like it alright.

There is a long hallway by the windows, on the way to the bathroom. There's no offices or anything nearby it and I strut the hell out of that hallway, striding like I'm Tyra's next little top model. Or Christy Turlington, who already is a Top Model, and ridiculously smart and good looking, two very admirable things.

I get time to study for my GREs, which is a good thing, because they're coming up fast and I wouldn't have studied at all if I didn't have this free time. I take the Literature GRE on Oct. 6th. I'm a little nervous about them because there are a lot of books I have read, but also a lot I haven't, and it makes no sense to try and read all of them on the off chance you'll come across them, but it's also pretty hard to know, from the passages they give you, what book it is. I've been reading the classics lately and I think that should help. Then, on Oct. 27th I get to test my math skills, something I haven't attempted since junior year of high school. The book I'm using makes it so much easier than I remember from school, but at the same time cramming all this stuff in is hard!

My days are so full lately, it doesn't help that my commute is about three hours roundtrip. I'm exhausted by the time I get home. I don't mind taking public transportation at all, that's not the problem. The problem is that I take a lot of public transportation and it takes up a lot of time. I'm thinking about buying a car, not to drive everyday, but to drive some days, like, to my evening class at Mason (I'll save those complaints for another post, I'm already getting annoyed with myself.) And that's a big responsibility, one I've never really attempted before. But I'm anxious to prove to myself I'm an adult who can handle the responsibility. And maybe move out too, that way I'd be closer to work and not killing myself trying to get here, but that leaves a lot of other issues that I'm not sure I'm capable of tackling right now. Here comes another big sigh.